Do you ever feel completely quite on the outside but there is a wild storm raging in your heart at the same time? A storm that doesn’t understand how reality and what you wished for could have drifted so far apart?
When you feel like that your heart doesn’t let you sleep. It keeps you up pondering why even if you dedicate all your energy to work on what stings you like a thorn, you’re still in a cold dark place. All you want is to scream out loud, refusing to accept that you can’t do anything but look for another dream. But your silly, sweet little heart doesn’t want to stop fightings invincible giants and never gave up believing in fairy tales. How difficult life can be!
I am a very stubborn girl: I know what I want, and I follow that path without looking left or right. I am like that in every means. When I buy a chair, and the perfect one is only available on another continent, I make happen that it gets to me even if people tell me it’s impossible. If I love, I love, and there is no but and why and other possibilities. It’s a gift, but a curse as well.
At the moment, maybe more curse than a gift. I stand on my terrace too often, feeling like a short-haired version of Rapunzel asking myself where the dreams I was hoping to live has led me. Loneliness makes my heart go cold, paired with a feeling of being abandoned.
Storm, oh storm, why don’t you calm down and show me the sun? I’ve been fighting a lot, I was strong, and I outdid myself on patience I didn’t know I could bring up, but now you made your point. Please let me get warm, let me laugh and spread all that excitement locked inside.
My Outfit
Dress: Do-Nuts Honey, Earrings: Tukadu, Shoes: A Gift
Pictures: Betty Heart
