Can you see me now? - Sara is in Love with…

Dear bullies from school who stole my stuff, dear teacher who told me I’d never become something, dear lover who left me believing I was not good enough, dear parents who I couldn’t make as proud as I’d wished to: Can you see me now?

Life is about growth. With every step we take, every book we read and especially every lesson we learn, we grow. Growth comes from setting goals, from the determination to make it to a better place, from support and as well from the will to overcome bad experiences.

What made me grow the most was rejection. Oh, I experienced a lot of it over the years: So many times people whose opinion mattered to me didn’t give me the place I wanted to have in their life, not the attention or affection I craved for. I got underestimated a lot too. If I know one thing: There is much more of this to come where I’m heading, and it’s ok, because there are a lot of lessons still to be learned.

Besides the occasional tears, broken wishes and dreams, there is something positive about this too: Whenever somebody – no matter if friends, family or lovers – gives me the feeling that I am not enough or not right, I get into a rebellious mood. The strong will to prove the people who rejected me wrong awakes and drives me like a powerful energy boost. I try to fill the shadows in my world with creativity.

I want the people who rejected me to see me laugh, smile at them from magazines and show them that I am doing fine. They could cast me out of their lives but never replace. Do you see me now? I want to ask, leaving a trail of glitter behind while I ride on my pink swan. I refuse to give up; I refuse to be put down.

Does it ever bring those people back? You might ask now. Honestly? No, it doesn’t, but it might get me to a better place where I discover new fulfilment, and they fade from my mind. Therefore: Let’s smile when we’re hurt, let’s be rebels and grow and sprawl like the most stubborn plant in the universe.